That’s not me. That’s not my story. Sometimes it’s hard to remember that.
The internet is a great resource but it can also send you to a deep, dark place. It’s hard not to compare yourself to others in some situations. When I hear about someone who has been through any of this, especially when the person was/is also stage 3, triple negative, I almost immediately compare myself to them. How are they doing? Will I have the same outcome? The good and the bad.
Then I remind myself that since the beginning, when I was first diagnosed, I told myself “I am not my mother”.
Now don’t get me wrong, she was an amazing, strong, loving, overall fantastic woman. She was my best friend and I miss her everyday. But her diagnosis is not mine. Her outcome is not mine.
Each day, I’m writing my own page and working towards a happy ending.
No matter your current situation, let’s all try and remember that we are writing our own stories. We may not be able to choose everything that happens to us but we can choose how we respond.
Today’s page in my Book O Life- sixth chemo treatment complete. My platelets went back up but my white blood cells are down again. I was still able to get treatment though. Yeah! Feeling great, half way done with this Taxol/Carboplatin regiment! I have a consult with Radiation Oncology later today to plan out what’s coming in the new year.
I have also been getting way comfortable with my new look. I am digging the new ‘do I’m rocking. Being bald is chilly at times but so convenient! And I am getting much better with my makeup stuff. My eyebrows and eyelashes are thinning but luckily there is still enough to work with. Thank goodness for mascara!
If anything, chemo is giving me a bomb ass completion! 😜
Mama's Got This 
You have a really nice head! I’d be in trouble if I had to shave my head…I gave a few really big lumps on my scalp. Not conducive to baldness. And with the post partum hair loss in full effect, my bumps are starting to poke through and it’s not cute😩 Oh well!
Anyway, your story will be one of success that can give others hope! Congrats on being done with #6! And I love your shirt!!!
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Hey Jessica!
I know we don’t know each other that we’ll but just wanted to say thanks for letting me go on this part of your journey with you.
I draw inspiration from your entries for my own life shiz. So thank you for that too. ☺️
Sending love, positivity, and good vibes always. ✌🏼️❤️
Ps-the ‘But First Gangsta Rap’ shirt? Solid. Gold.
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You are right. You are so like your mom in many ways–sweet, kind, generous, and caring. BUT you have your own journey that is not your mom’s. With new treatments and your positive outlook the boys will be dancing with you at their weddings just like I got to with John. Love you lots❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Hey-I’m dancing with you after the boys! Lot’s of love.👍🏻😉😀
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You are an inspiration not only for yourself but for many others….keep it up. You are loved. Prayers are 💪🏽 strong. Love ❤️ to you and family.
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Jess, you ARE writing your own story and you are inspiring all of us with your journey. Thank you for sharing and reminding us that attitude is EVERYTHING. You keep on moving that mountain, girl!!! 💗💗💗
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