Bald is…

Last night I channeled my inner Britney, minus the umbrella. Pop culture reference for you youngins- google it. In other words, I shaved my head. 

I have control issues. It’s pretty well known. But I’ll be damned if I am going to let this situation take all of my control away. We picked a day and we did it. On my terms. John and Little Harlon joined in the fun too. Of course John looks handsome and Harlon was such a trooper. He sat still the whole time and looks just as adorable as his daddy. 

I can’t say that I wasn’t nervous. Or that it doesn’t make me sad. After all, I am only human. I’ve had my hair for 32 years. Yes, it has been very unattractively short at times ๐Ÿ˜• but it’s never been gone.   I am sure I’ll feel the same when I have my mastectomy. Missing a little of myself. But at the same time I know that hair and/or breasts don’t make the person. My attitude is what makes me and I am the only one in control of that. 

I imagined I’d feel free and lighter. Instead, I feel like I have a super tight bun in my non existent hair. I do feel taller though. Weird. Showering was trip.  I used way too much shampoo. I even used conditioner- habit. 

I’ll be donating my hair again to Pantene Beautiful Lengths- a program that gives FREE real hair wigs to women fighting the big C. As of right now, I don’t plan on getting a wig myself.  But who knows, that could change and I am ok with that. 

A quick follow up to my first day of chemo. The nurse said Saturday’s would most likely be my day. Right now I am feeling ok. A little headache but otherwise fine. I’ll be taking it easy today and resting up for our big pumpkin patch outing tomorrow. ๐ŸŽƒ I mean, it is October already! 

7 thoughts on “Bald is…

  1. I absolutely LOVE your spirit and your amazing attitude, Jessica! You ROCK the hair, by the way, and are beautiful no matter how long/short it is. Love that you’re doing this on your terms. You are certainly a force to reckon with and we’re behind you all the way. Keep it up! #TEAM FILLOON #STRONG #POSITIVE. ๐Ÿ’—

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  2. Jess…You rock the short hair babe!! John and Harlon too!!! You are so amazing…your attitude, your spirit, your kick ass attitude and the love of your family makes me love you even more, if that is possible. You got this girlfriend! #TeamFilloon #KickAss #LoveMyFamily

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  3. I think you look positively SEXY!!! Seriously, I do!! Keep smiling beautiful girl…love you! Bald is beautiful and you just proved it!! ๐Ÿ˜

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  4. Your smile could light up North America, & that’s all I see…. well, not really!

    Jessica, as already stated, your love of family & friends melts my heart, your award winning blogs, your strength, your sense of humor & your attitude, to just name a few, make me have a huge smile on my face. You do have this!!! ๐Ÿ˜˜

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