Nuclear Medicine 

Nuclear medicine- sounds super dramatic. Just got home from my bone scan. Results will be here sometime next week. As for now, I am radioactive. Like one of those three eyed fish on the Simpsons. Harlon is at Irma’s and Wyatt is upstairs with John. Me, I’m just hanging downstairs. 🎤All by myself🎤  But it’s cool. I made sure to slam lots of baby boy time in the last few days. Any chance I could get, I was hugging and kissing on those kids. It’s hard though, Harlon wanted me to pick him up and I just can’t lift him yet. And I can’t sit on the ground to play with him like we usually do. (C Sections are bitch) I honestly feel like he’s pissed at me and there is no way to explain to him what is going on. I just kept telling him how much I love him. 💖 And I hope that he doesn’t remember any of this when he’s older. 

Another thing that has been on my mind- thank you notes. I 100% intended on writing thank you notes for all of the wonderful gifts we have received over the the last few weeks. Really I did. Promise. The cards have been purchased and are sitting on my dresser. But I just don’t think it’s going to happen. I’m sorry guys! Please know how thankful we are for everything! My days just seem to get away from me with all of the scheduled and surprise appointments. And when I’m not kicking it at Kaiser, I am trying to spend as much time with my boys as I can before chemo starts. But PLEASE know  how grateful we are for all of you and everything you all have done 😘

Last thought of the night- we all know that Mama’s got this. Well, Mama’s also got BO. John made me toss all of our bath/beauty products and has replaced them with natural ones. I’m all cool with that. Except for the fact that natural deodorants super suck! Most of my appointments involve lifting my arms and poking at my boobs and pits. At first, I would apologize, like- “Oh, I’m sorry, you know, with this kind of diagnosis, I’m just trying to avoid traditional deodorants…. Blah blah blah.” And they were all “Cool. Like yeah, no worries, I get it. Blah.” But shit man, if any of you have a natural deodorant that you recommend that REALLY works, help a sister out! ✌🏻️

12 thoughts on “Nuclear Medicine 

  1. I’ve used the “Desert Essence” brand deodorant for years…its works well, on normal non super sweaty days. At one point you’ll can just say fuck it, it happens to most moms post kid #2, and just accept this new stinky, dazed, stage of raising two kiddos.

    I love how you write, and really encourage you to publish this all someday in the future for other Momma’s to read. Postpartum was truly one of the hardest times for me, especially #2, add in boob cancer..I can’t even deal or imagine. I beyond support how much humor you can add to this situation, and am here rooting for you every step of the way. Can’t say #teamfilloon or #badassmomma enough, you are amazing.

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  2. Hi sweetie. You know my friend’s daughter is an oncology esthetician living in Tennessee. She recommends Crystal all natural deodorant. You can buy it at most grocery stores. Do u have a Raleys? She has told me that she’s putting something together for you and I am waiting to receive it so that i can send my care package along with it. I actually tried Crystal deodorant spray at work. It left my pits wet for a while but it actually worked. I love you!!

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  3. All I can say is that you’re even more amazing than I previously thought, and I thought you were pretty damn amazing before. I truly get how hard it is to tell your toddler “mommy can’t pick you up” or when you can’t do the normal things they’re accustomed to you doing. He won’t remember this time though, so remind yourself that you are giving your boys every bit of yourself that you possibly can.

    I’m so impressed with your ability to use humor to help you get through this and I’m grateful that you’re sharing your experience with us in such a raw and honest way. Hope it’s therapeutic for you. I love you Jess!


  4. Your doing everything right….keep going and I agree with Rachel….keep your blog and notes…who knows how many others you can help….I have talked to quite a few when going through what I did also…stay positive and keep writing ….it keeps you sane….you have so much help and so many with great info….you and family are loved.


  5. Hi Jess,

    I think spending time with your boys and family is more important thank thank you notes. Everyone on here loves you and would agree I’m sure 😉 I use primally pure in lavender and it has been amazing. I’ve been using it for about a year and have only felt stinky maybe once or twice (damn those weird rayon shirts that always give you BO!) thinking of you all the time. Wyatt is so handsome and perfect ❤️

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  6. Ahhh, all those breast cancer tests!!! No pride or humility left after going through those! I seriously think ever man should experience at least one of them to gain some insight, especially if those men are doctors!! “This isn’t bad at all” should never come out of their mouths!!! There actually are few words of comfort except “this too shall pass,” and always “God is in control.” Think about you every day Jessica. Judi


  7. Oh, my gosh, you made me laugh! Funny, I just wrote a blog post about this very subject. We went through a lot to find something natural… it was a funny story, so I shared it on my blog. It took us about 8 months, but no regrets! Look for DayDry. It’s made in Paris, but they are now shipping to North America. Oh, they are on Facebook… look for DayDry North America for the English site. Good Luck to you!

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