Today was my last chemo! And thankfully so because that shit sucks. You may have seen me jumping for joy on either Facebook or Instagram earlier. 😜That ‘Last Chemo High’ was short lived though. I’m already tired and popping those anti-nausea meds and my jelly joints are back. But LAST ONE!!!! No more, always surprising, red pee! Woot Woot!
I couldn’t even look while getting my final dose of the Red Devil today. Just the thought of it makes me want to puke. We slowed the Cytoxan dose so to not screw with my sinuses as much. It helped. A little. At least, it made me a little less woozy and snotty than before. Although, at one point I did yell out “I hate this shit!” By the time I realized I actually hollered it, John looked at me a bit shocked. I shocked myself too. Hopefully I didn’t scare any other patients. I mean, I had just met a guy about 30 minutes before who was telling me today was his first treatment. I was all positive, telling him he’s got this. Now I’m blurting out how much it sucks. Sorry dude. But you do got this. Even though it may suck sometimes.
I’d really like to holler a big Fuck You and peace out to the big C but I’m not quite there yet. Next up, it’s surgery time, still on the schedule for March 21. After that, I think I’ll feel like I’m over the hump. Maybe. What do I know? Then on to radiation. Five days a week for 5 weeks.
My hair has started to grow back a little bit. It’s pretty fuzzy and looks light. John, lovingly, has been calling me elephant head. 🐘 A fellow survivor in my yoga class thinks it looks like real hair, you know, like the kind that’s going to stick around. That would be cool. But we’ll see, this last treatment might scare it all away again.
I see my oncologist next Thursday so I will have more updates at that time. Stay tuned.
Fun fact: A different lady in my yoga class came up to me when I was rolling up my mat yesterday. She told me I was striking. When I took off my hat, she felt like she was watching an exotic model do yoga. Guuuuurrrlllllll, thank you 🙌🏻 (Insert hair flip 💁🏻)