Pre-Op Appointment 

I couldn’t help but laugh when I had to sign away my left and right breast at my pre-op appointment. Literally, I signed a form that allows the surgeon to remove both the left and right breast. It’s not funny. I don’t know why I laughed, John and the nurse didn’t seem as amused. I’m guessing most people are pretty upset when signing that form. I wasn’t happy about it either but I have no other choice and it’s time to do the damn thing. 

That’s me. Just signing away my boobs.

As of right now, I am scheduled as an outpatient, meaning I will go home the same day of surgery. Of course, this can all change depending on how things go. I wouldn’t be mad if they made me stay overnight. I mean, no matter where I am, I’ll be drugged up on pain meds and uncomfortable so why not be in a place where they can monitor me….and nurses can do the dirty work of emptying my drains. 

Yes, drains. I will have at least a couple of drains coming out of me. This is where nurse John will play a major roll and will be helping me empty them. The drains will stay in as long as I am still producing “stuff”. 

My surgery ‘welcome pack’. 😜

Oh and if anyone was interested, my white blood cell count……..went down even more after my second blood draw. So I am back on those shots to stimulate the growth of white blood cells. Only 3 days worth so not too bad. Medicine is pretty crazy huh? 

Today was the first day I actually got a nervous stomach (and that weird urge to pee) when I thought about surgery. Luckily today I also had the pleasure of meeting with a bunch of fellow survivor sisters. I’ve said it before, people come into your life right when you need them. Today was no exception. These women, in all stages of survivorhood, made me feel powerful. And so supported. I am beyond thankful to have met them all. 
Tomorrow, John and I will be leaving the boys with his parents for a week. It makes me sad and I will totally miss them but they don’t need to see me like that. I won’t be able to hold them so it would just be a tease… for us all. That week separation might just be the hardest part of the whole surgery thing. Pain- I can tolerate. Not having my babies will be rough. Not having my boobies, well shit, that’s going to be rough too. 

Gahhhh ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Tuesday, I’m ready for you. 

6 thoughts on “Pre-Op Appointment 

  1. Your babies will be being spoiled by grandma & grandpa, so keep that gorgeous smile & amazing attitude (or not). You deserve to feel just how you want to, day by day!

    And, I don’t know John yet, but I love him!!! You, too, sweetheart! XO

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  2. jessica….. you never cease to amaze me!
    you are like super woman!!! lol. never ever have i seen anyone fight a disease with such grace! And humor too!!!! Girl…. you are unbelievable!!!! AND… Still Beautiful as ever! We are all thinking and praying for your recovery!!!!
    love you so much ❤xoxo😙

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  3. Prayers and thinking of you all through this. You are Wonder Woman …like everyone says….” you are amazing”.. I will not lie there will be ups and downs…but Laughter is the best medicine. You can do this…you have so many behind you and a great support team I’m sure. Team Filloon!

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  4. Well it’s on Jess and it won’t be easy I’m sure but you are such a damn fighter!!! You will be fine because you have the will to be fine… and as someone we both know and love says “you can’t worry about what what you can’t control “😂😂. He’s such a jerk huh???? But I guess he has a point. Just know I love you and will be thinking of you non stop🙏👍

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  5. Here is the 6 degrees of separation. Harlon Filloon -> Tim Ginn -> moi. YOU are fucking Rockstar! Tim always has a saying he provides me when life is is in the shitter. States it came from Jesuit priests or something, but really I don’t think they would say this, however appropriate in this case. “Illegitimi Non Carborundum” – A reminder that when times get tough…”don’t let the bastards grind you down!” My prayers for you, the surgeons, the staff that will be in your surgery and your family.

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