6 Month Follow Up

Heyyyya! A quick check in after my most recent 6 month oncology follow up this past Friday.

Things are looking good overall. I’ll be getting routine blood work this week when I have a chance to stop in and I’m scheduled for a ‘surveillance’ CT scan this October.

My only complaint has been continuous pain in my left hand. Specifically my left thumb and middle finger. Sometimes I’m not able to use them at all, sometimes it’s just extremely painful and stiff. That all said, I’m getting X-rays this week on my hand to see if there’s anything obvious that comes up. And I have a bone scan at the end of July to see what’s up there. It’s been a few years since my last bone scan so it will be interesting to see how menopause has been treating me and my bones.

The family is good, the boys are growing like weeds, and I continue to be a hot mess mom. In the most lovable way possible, of course 🤭

John and I celebrated our 9 year anniversary last month 💜
Big Ol’ Kids 💙💙

A Little Late But Still Great {News}

Back in November, I was able to celebrate a chunk of my birthday morning with my oncologist. It was a superb follow up, all things are looking good and I’m feeling fine 👌

At this appointment, we decided to order a routine CT scan of the chest, abdomen and pelvis. Due to covid and what not, things are still running a bit behind so my scan was scheduled for a few weeks after my oncology appointment.

Fun Fact: I will never NOT think I peed myself during a CT scan with contrast…. If you know, you know… and then you know that the contrast injection is some weird shit.

The scan itself was fine (aside from the pee-pants sensation), the Kaiser staff is always great. It did take super long to get the results though. After several emails to my doc, I finally explained that the 3 week delay in my results was about to shove me straight into a severe anxiety tornado. So on Christmas Day, Santa (aka Dr. Ahmed) gave the fucking fab gift of a clear scan! Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Halleluuuuuuuuuujah! (Channeling my inner Pentatonix, you know?)

Being 5 years out from diagnosis is huge for me, because- DUH- it means I’m still alive and living is pretty cool. I continue to be grateful for each new unicorn (gray) hair popping up every other day because it means this gal has had the pleasure of getting older. The wrinkles around my eyes remind me that I’ve had this time to laugh and make happy memories. My extra… errr… cushioning reminds me I’ve been able to eat another holiday season’s worth of treats.

And like Circe said in Madeline Miller’s book, ‘Of course my flesh reaches for the earth. That is where it belongs.’

Happy to be here 💜

Annual ABC’s of Gratitude- 2021 Edition

Grateful for these turkeys, for sure ❤️

A little late but still grate-ful! Yesterday got away from me and while I planned to post the annual ABC’s of gratitude on Thanksgiving as per usual, I – well, I just didn’t. Life, ehh?

Wait, what’s are the ABC’s of gratitude, you ask? It’s a spin off of a game I play with myself when I’m anxious, bored, trying to fall asleep, etc. and I first talked about it on here back when I had my breast biopsy 5 years ago. I was pregnant, scared and trying to stay calm while a big ass needle was entering my big ass boob. Silently crying, I was listing foods that began with each letter of the alphabet to cope.

I still make these lists quite often in my head, mostly at night time because insomnia is a bitch. And when it comes time to create my annual list for Thanksgiving, I love to to look back and see what’ changed, what’s similar and what is the same… fricking word. for. word. Check it: 2016 2017 2018 2019 2020

Quick reminder, these are things I am truly grateful for, no matter how big or small they may seem. And since it’s my game, I make the rules. XOXO!

A- Aging and Audiobooks

B- Birdie Watching

C- Coffee and My Chiropractor

D- Dark Humor and Doggies

E- Epsom Salt Baths

F- Family, Friends and Folk Tales (triple score)

G- Giggle Juice (Champagne) and Gary the Gecko

H- My Health and Heating Pads

I- My Incredibly Adorable Children

J- The Johnster

K- Kindness

L- Live Crystal Sales

M- The Moon

N- Neighbors Who Feel Like Fam

O- Online Ordering and Drive Up Pick Up

P- Planty Plants

Q- Quiet Time

R- Roscoe

S- Sweatpants and Spooky Shit

T- Time Outs for Mom

U- My Unicorn Hairs (Gray Hair)

V- Vaccines

W- Working From Home


Y- YouTube Tutorials For All The Things

Z- Zit Patches and Zoloft

What’s on your list these days?