Chemo Day # 1

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I apologize for not answering calls and texts last night and this morning. I have been a bit… on edge. Plus, I am a mom of a child already entering the terrible twos which has not been aiding the situation. Lord, help me. 

The unknown has had me stressed for sure. Not just stressed , I won’t lie, I’ve been a pissy bitch. Sorry to anyone who has dealt with that. (Cough, cough- John😬)  But now I’m here, sitting in the chair, port poked and in use. I’m watching the Today show and John is doing some work. It’s like we are at home just kicking it. NOT. Kidding, the nurses here are great and making me feel really comfortable. I could get used to this, like for the next 6 months or something. Ha! Kidding again, maybe chemo makes me funny. 😜

I am by far the youngest person the room.  It’s a little silly, some of he looks I get are super sad. I am ok though, hoping that my age allows me to fight harder. I did just have the sweetest lady come by and introduce herself. She is also triple negative and on the same regiment as me just flip flopped. She started with AC and is ending with Taxol. She had some nice tips and tricks. 

I plan to post later today or tomorrow with an update on how I’m feeling. So stay tuned. Also, some big doins’ happening this weekend. Change, it’s in the hair. 😉

***Fun fact that I apparently didn’t share before when I was super drugged up following delivery. Part of the reason Wyatt was an emergency C Section was because he was breached, butt first. So when he pooped in me, he really pooped out of me…. think about that. Gross. 

Shots! Now it’s Your Turn 

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Beginning later this week, you will need your flu shot and pertussis vaccine if you will be visiting the Filloon household.  We won’t require your shot records like Petey’s kennel does, it’s more based on the honor system.  But it is a big F’ing deal so don’t come over and then be all like “oh, I’m getting it next week…” This mama can’t afford to get sick and miss any chemo treatments. I got shit to do, you know?  And Wyatt is just a little guy and shouldn’t be exposed to yucky germs anyway. We appreciate it! 

Chemo is still scheduled for this Thursday morning. I am a little nervous but so ready. Every night, I visualize the bad cells dying.  I take my supplements daily that I hear attack the cancer. I use a CBD tincture and a CBD lotion now that I’m no longer pregnant. I rub frankincense over the lumps.  I have crystals I wear, some that I sleep with. I get energy healing sessions. I have altered my diet and I drink a shit ton of green juice. All with a smile on my face  because what is pouting and bitching going to do for me, right?! And now I am ready to take the next step. I’m ready to deal with any shitty side effects that may come because I believe that chemo will do the damn thing and help me win. 

I also never forget who I am fighting for. When I was putting Harlon to bed last night, we were laying there talking (and counting up to 10 because that’s his jam lately).  I told him that I am going to get better but it might take a little bit. But I will fight so hard and with everything I have so I can watch him and his baby brother grow up. I need that and they need that. I never forget that I am fighting for my husband, my family, my friends, and people I have never even met. I’m fighting for Team Filloon! 💪🏻💖

So, good night, I am off to visualize some rad shit happening in my body.  😌

Reunited and it Feels So Good! 

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Not much to report over here, thankfully. It’s been a nice mellow couple of days. I am feeling better everyday from the C section and removal of my Fallopian tubes. Yeah, that happened, not sure if I shared it before. I had planned to tie my tubes in the case of a C section at a recent Drs visit and while they were in there, evacuating my child, they decided to totally remove portions that are prone to cancer. Still a bit sore but I can move around much easier. Even went to Target today 👍🏻

But my favorite thing to report is that I can finally be with my boys again! In the same room, hug them, and kiss them! Man, I missed those monkeys so much! 🐒